“By Your Side” the less glorious side of LOVE
Alright so I felt it was necessary to hit with a blog for this new song titled “By Your Side.” The beat was made by an up and coming producer named Mazic!The sample that he included spoke to me on a night a couple weeks back where I was going thru something in my life that ran parallel to what i thought the sampl meant. The chipmunked voice is sayin “Its alright, for an hour or two, while i lay here with you, by your side.”
You can take this so many ways, which is what I love about music. When Mazic made this beat im sure he didnt have the same idea that I did for this sample. So what happened in my life?
Ive been in a relationship for the past 4 months and basically ive been as faithful as one man can be. Somethin rare in today’s world haha. Anyways a lot of times my desire to attract fans and folowers can interfere with my personal life. As you can imagine a girl could get a little jealous, and if she had been hurt in the past she may assume that her man was up to somethin. I was a hurt by this because of the fact that i have been faithful and hadnt disrespected my relationship even when chatting online with girls or whatever. I felt confused because things can be so good while Im there laying with her and I knew it was all real, but when i leave how could the thoughts of me with another person enter her mind? Now refer to the hook—see where Im comin from. So on that night I began to write this song. However, I had a deeper problem that was revealed by this situation.
I realized that my relationship with Music had a similar speed bump. When Im here in the studio I feel like music is layin here next to me, loving me, believing in me, knowing that all I want is her. And at the same time I feel like when Im out there in my regular life Im so far from gettin in and livin out my dreams…like by livin life Music feels played. By letting anything else make me happy Im Cheating. Like having a brief thought of NOT making it in Music is Cheating. Which it is when you think about it. So I felt challenged to make a song to let out these emotions and express my obsession with the most challenging relationship in my life…My relationship with music….one I may possibly make even more difficult by staying real and not conforming to what people like to hear on the radio. I can only pray that my brand of music will be appreciated and that maybe one day Music will trust me enuff to make me hers in a way that the world sees us in our happy state.
Heres the lyrics
And when I leave I’m forgotten
And u don’t see the truth in everything that we was plottin
Hard to not care cuz is different when I’m there
Late nights speakin foolish say Ill love you til the coffin
Face to face laffs right bubbles in the bath like
How could we go wrong and how could you just act like
I ain’t really there for you and I don’t really care for you
Beg for your belief is somethin I don’t really care to do.
But we here again and I’m trynna prove
That you what I wna win I ain’t trynna lose
And I’m just trynna find the lane where the lovers cruise
Cuz all I knw is jammed roads where the lovers lose 12
Is this what lovers do
Play wit emotions up and down like double u
The low is worth the high girl I’m in love wit u
I love the challenge so I think that’s why I fuck wit u
I think I’m better off alone
Then stayin up late and spendin hours on the phone
Typin and I’m textin trynna figure out what’s wrong
Cure ur insecurities and see what’s goin on
I talk to you but you don’t talk back
I speak the truth and let them other niggas talk stacks
How could you applaud that another phony fraud act
Pretend that ima fall back but I just want it all back
So I strive for you stay alive for you
Pack every single show and get em live for you
And all my pride gone baby I will die for you
And if I fail at least I can say I tried for you
But failin ain’t the plan
Cuz even if you I lose I’m prevailin as a man
Knowing what it like to give you everything I can
And ima never stop as long as there’s a chance cuz
And when we cut its like magic
head above the rest and no I neva been average
And I don’t love her for the things that she can get me
But more or less the feelin that I’m feelin when she wit me
I be like bobby and she be like whitney
crack thru the headphones make her come hit me
Our love is like a circus no britney
We clown plus we walk a tight rope quite dope
But when I think I’m in
she push me out the door and I’m standin here again
And I’m here for the win
But ill remain fame to the end
And of course heres the download! ——Love no Hate
http://www.zshare.net/audio/643315308f215cbb/
